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Eric

June 16, 1996






After my fantasy wedding with Rebecca, I began to believe again. I began to believe I might actually be able to make a relationship work with her. I didn't want to end it with Andrew... yet. I mean, what if things never materialized with Rebecca? That would destroy Andrew for no reason. Was I beginning to lose my mind?

I made a date with Rebecca for lunch.

We arrived separately-- a table in the shade of an unpretentious restaurant where I figured no one would notice us. She breezed in with the confidence of a thoroughbred. "Million Dollar Win" she would have been called.

"Recovered from the dinner party?" she asked and ordered a sparkling water.

"I'll never recover from that night, Rebecca. You know, that whole world seems freaky and comfortable at the same time. I had no idea your family money went that far back in history. Jesus, Rebecca, you must have had a thousand boyfriends."

We ordered a light lunch and she answered me.

"Eric, I had almost no boyfriends. They were terrified of me, of my fame, of my family history... I didn't even go to the senior prom."

I could tell she was nervous that I may shy away from her, from her historical family and all its trappings. I soothed her fears and told her I had no intention of running away from her. Then I found myself going further than that.

"Rebecca, my relationship is technically over with my ex. I want us to move further, I want to be closer to you, Rebecca. To be a part of your life, to be connected to you. Does this make any sense?"

"Yes," she said. "But why the sudden change, Eric? Did my father's yacht really get to you?" she joked.

I told her it hadn't. I told her SHE had gotten to me. Everything about her had "gotten to me" and I then did something bold. I kissed her.

Right there and for real. A "for real" kiss.

It felt just fine. It felt normal. I even kept my eyes open. I looked at her. She kissed me back and we made eye contact. Yes. There was chemistry. Drew was a thousand years away...

Until I looked at the table near the entrance.

And saw Greg staring right at me.




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