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Greg

January 27, 1996





I felt his eyes on me the whole time.

*****

I first noticed it when I started my work out.

I did some stretching exercises and saw him in the mirror.

I caught his eye; he smiled and waved.

I went to the free weights and grabbed two dumb-bells, and started flies. I got my rhythm, so I closed my eyes, concentrating, pinpointing which muscles were working.

I felt myself breaking into a sweat.

I also sensed someone sit down beside me.

I opened my eyes and saw him next to me.

I put down the weights and went to the incline board to work my abs.

*****

Ninety-eight.

I was feeling pretty good.

Ninety-nine.

These ab crunches were a snap.

One hundred.

I stopped and saw his grinning face, staring down at me, from between my spread legs.

*****

I was swimming, doing laps.

The water felt cool against my flesh as I cut my way through the pool.

I couldn't get him out of my head. Why was he doing this? Why not go bother some other guy? This was stupid. I turned, put my feet on the wall and shot myself forward.

I started to think about tomorrow.

I hoped Richard would hire me. Thirty bucks an hour to film people sue each other. Richard probably has partners. I could work for them. I could branch out and make some real money.

I started thinking about my father.

Maybe I'll call him in a couple of days.

We could go out and have lunch.

Maybe he's here now. He said he's been by and seen me here. I can't even remember his face.

I once found old baby pictures of me. My Mother had cut my Father out the pictures, every last one. All that remained was his left hand. A gold band around his ring finger.

I will call him...soon.

I climbed out of the pool and looked for my towel.

"Looking for this?"

He stood there holding my towel.

I stood there shivering. "What do you want?"

"Nothing...yet," Steve said and threw me the towel.




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