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Greg

February 20, 1996





"You make a very good Vodka Collins," I said, finishing my fifth one.

Steve put a CD into his stereo. "Thank you, kind sir. Some of us have a gift for these sorts of things."

I was starting to feel a buzz. "You sounded like Hugo right then."

He tightened up. "Let me make you one of my 'specials'."

*****

He made me four of his "specials" and I was getting horny.

Jimi Hendrix was pumping through the speakers-- each wave of sound pulsing in my body like electric blood. I had to dance.

I got up.

The room started to spin.

Steve put his arms around me, steadying me.

"Have you ever been experienced?" he whispered in my ear.

I started to unbutton Steve's shirt, exposing his chest. "Let me show you experience."

I began kissing his chest.....

He pulled away. "Let me get you another drink."

"I don't want another drink. I want you."

I started to untuck my shirt, but even then, everything fell into a Gaussian blur. "What do you want to do?" I heard him say, his voice descending into the black.

*****

Everything faded in and out the rest of the night...

BLACK

I felt myself being moved.

BLACK

I felt someone unbuttoning my pants and slipping them down my legs.

BLACK

I tried to get away but, I couldn't.

BLACK

I was weighted down, pinned.

BLACK

I felt the heat -- skin moving over skin.

BLACK

I cried out.

BLACK

"Stop it!" I hear myself scream.

"This is how you like it, don't you, whore?" I heard a voice whisper gruffly in my hear.

BLACK

"NO! Yesss.." I heard myself whimper.

BLACK

In a netherworld, a volcano erupted, searing the landscape with its molten lava.

BLACK

I started to cry.

He started to laugh.

BLACK

"You said that's how you wanted it," Steve said, pulling up his pants. "Real nasty and rough."

BLACK

*****

I drove home, went inside, said hi to Mike and then headed to the bathroom.

I looked at myself in the mirror.

The bruises on the backs of my legs and ass were already turning color.

I thought this thing only happened in prison.

I sat in my shower for three hours.

It was my fault. He said, I wanted it that way.

I wanted him.




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