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Hugo

December 31, 1995




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The dream had been swirling and dark, my mind rattled and dazed when I awoke.

I wasn't sure where I was, at first.

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Home.

Something was wrong, though.

I didn't feel very good.

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My sheets were soaked, wrapping me up like one of Egypt's finest. I straightened an arm bound tightly against me, stretching and clawing away until the sheet loosened.

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I put my palm to my forehead. I had a fever and it was a bad one.

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I placed my hand on my chest and felt my heart. It was speeding along, as if my body still thought that it was dreaming.

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I gasped for a lung-full of air, trying to slow my breathing.

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I could hear the blood shooting through my veins as I lay there.

Relax, Hugo. Work has caught up with you a little bit. You're body's telling you it's time for a rest.

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It's that time of year.

Picture of Hugo sitting on his bedPeople get sick.

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It's me, Hugo!

AIDS!

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I tried to meditate, blank out my mind.

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Don't go there.

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It's not what you think...

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Oh, yes it is...

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Charley had been dead for two years.

Now it was my turn.


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